Hats off in celebration!

Greetings from sunny Sanibel, Florida! What a wonderful time to be able to go without a hat for the first time since November. The sunshine and warmth does a person good! Though we are so missing my parents down here we are making the best of our vacation and enjoying every minute. We have lots to celebrate! Happy Birthday Curtie!

The rest is up to me!

This week I had check ins with my oncologist and my surgeon. All is well and I will be closely watched with appointments every three months for oncology and six months for the surgeon. I have been riding quite the roller coaster since I finished radiation. One day I am up and the next I am down. Sometimes it lasts more than a day. I have been surprised that being done feels harder than while I was in the thick of it. It was easier to power through a set plan the doctors had for me. I had to come clean last weekend with Curt and admit that I was struggling. Although my appointment with my doctor was good, the reality of Breast Cancer is that it is not ever really over. I will take Tamoxifen to start with and we will evaluate in two years when we see if I am really in menopause. The menopause thing is a whole other story that I am not so sure how real I want to be about it but I am sad. I never thought I would say that and I do not want any more children but never the less I am sad about it.

OK with the above being said I am ready to move forward. I owe it to my family not to wallow in feeling sorry for myself. It is human to feel all types of ways and often in my case it is all at once. This morning I have felt joy, sadness, gratitude, strength and a bit crazy and it is only 10:45am!

Here are the top 7 things I am focusing on:

1.  Fake it till you make it
2.  One day at a time
3.  This next step is up to me
4.  Attitude and gratitude is everything
5.  Love your body
6.  Just be yourself
7.  Hold your head up high there is no room for shame

So one day at a time and we will see where this all goes. Onward!