The past few weeks have been wonderful and moving. Everyday that I wake up feeling good feels like a gift. From stopping at our corner store, breakfast with friends, driving Saige to the dentist to attending basketball games, my re-entry into a normal routine has been warm and welcoming. I am so touched by the hugs and smiles, they mean the world to me. I really appreciate people acknowledging what I am going through. At times during this journey I wondered if I would wish I hadn't been so open, but right now, I know I would not change a thing. People share with me and give back more than they know. My conversations and relationships are richer and more meaningful than ever! This has been one of the many silver linings of Breast Cancer.
Now, the next step is making sure I keep sacred all I have learned and I hope I continue feeling that every morning is a gift. Last week I started running and exercising again. I wish I could say it felt great, but it hurt! I kept reminding myself of why I was doing this, it's because I can. Being out and about is a lot easier than being "in my head and body". On one hand, I want to beat the s#*! out of myself to punish my body for betraying me and then there is part of me that wants to treat myself gingerly so I don't get hurt again. I think I landed somewhere in the middle in these last two weeks with only one melt down, courtesy of my furry friends!
I start radiation Tuesday, so my little honeymoon is over for now. I am curious what this next part of the journey will hold........
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