Meltdowns and More

Well, this week was a record for meltdowns. What do I mean by meltdown? Visualize the three year old temper tantrum but in a bald 45 year old woman's body. Yuck, I know. My week started off awesome, as of last Saturday I was feeling the best I have felt on chemo and by Monday I had convinced myself that I was "super" chemo lady, weird but true. I should have known something was off when I had my first meltdown. I was excited to meet with my friend Louisa on Monday. She had said she would help me start a blog (more on that later) so I could record and save this "adventure". Curt was helping download all my photos from my phone (which I guess should be updated every so often but when you have over 1,500 of them this is not good) especially if your husband is trying to get out the door. Later that morning I went to access the downloaded photos, couldn't find them right away and lost it! Curt probably could quote me sobbing on the phone, "My life is gone!" He calmed me down and hung up saying we'll find them. I continued to meltdown then double check the computer and surprise I found them! First meltdown completed. Monday was a a success Louisa walked me throughout the process of making a blog and I worked the rest of the night to pull together the sequence of events since 9/19/12. I am so happy I did it now because it took a long time and already had forgotten some things. Thanks again Louisa! 

Tuesday I woke up and felt like I had been hit by a bus with a cold and couldn't get out of bed! How could this happen to "super" chemo lady? I was so mad that I had caught a cold. I have been really careful. So I decided to stay in bed, rest, drink lots of fluids and cancel my doctor's appointment for my regular blood drawing. I left a message at the office and promptly went back to sleep. Around 1pm I get a call from my nice nurse Margaret, "Lynn, let me get this straight," she says very calmly, "you are sick so you are canceling coming to the doctors?" Hmmm I think, "Well I don't want to get anyone else sick, " I reply.

"Lynn, we need to see you by 2pm at the latest. We especially want to see you if you are sick!" Ok, Ok. This is the onset of my second meltdown. I am not "super" chemo lady and I am like every other chemo person out there, need to follow the rules and sometimes that seems scary! My poor friend, Kathy called me in the middle of my sobbing because I couldn't figure how I could drive myself to the doctors office. Kindly she calmed me down and said she would be by in a few minutes. All ended well, I stopped crying, got there on time, had my blood drawn and all my numbers were fine. I have a "normal" cold. Well, at least one thing is normal. : )

The week has ended well, I am getting over my cold and taking it easy. I am grateful to have wonderful people surrounding me, comforting me and letting me be crazy and loving me anyways. 

Love to all, Lynn